Oyasumi Nasai...

Oyasumi Nasai is Japanese for "Good Night...." As in good night I'm going to bed now. I am freakin' tired! Why am I tired? I think I may know. Mind you my tired is not really a physical tiredness either. I am mentally exhausted to a point where my perceptions of reality start to change. That is the reality that is JP. Here's my Monday - Friday schedule......


6:30AM -- Alarm goes off; JP hits snooze

6:45AM -- JP rockets out of bed

7:00AM -- JP kisses Sharkey goodbye, goes downstairs, lets the Maggie Dog out, puts on a pot of coffee and prepares either toast, bagel, or a Delight's breakfast sandwich

7:20AM -- JP leaves house and drives to work

8:00AM -- JP gets to work

8:45AM-
11:00AM -- JP sits in meetings

12:00PM-
12:30PM -- JP runs out to grab lunch to bring back to eat at desk (yes I AM that BUSY)

12:30PM-
7:00PM -- JP does project work, even more project work, and on top of that if that were not enough, even more project work

7:20PM -- JP arrives home (notice it takes 1/2 the time to get home at this time)

7:45PM-
10:45PM -- JP tries to relax, make dinner, spend quality time with Sharkey and play with Maggie a bit.

11:00PM -- JP showers and goes to bed.

This is my routine. It does not vary. It has been the same for the past 2 weeks. I am living Groundhog Day. I sometimes feel like I am living outside of my body watching JP go through the motions, if that makes sense. Maybe it does not. But again I am tired and I'm definitely not operating a full JP efficiency.

But I realize that this too shall pass. I just need to hang in there for a couple more weeks. Yeah, that's it. Two weeks. 14 days. 336 hours. There have been good things too. Like.........

My Sharkey is now, officially 6 years cancer free. She had a CT scan last Friday and it was GOOD... And she is b-e-a-utiful!!

Next weekend is a 3 day weekend because of Easter (THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!). And so I get a chance to rest. Sleep in... Play Nintendo... Watch a long movie.... Go to the golf driving range.... Maybe I'll be able to live in my body instead of feeling like I am in a perpetual out of body experience.

I am working out again, and this has helped a TON with the physical energy and stamina during the day.

Although I average 11 hours a day, have also been working Saturdays, and am exhausted, I LOVE what I am doing. I am in the ZONE. I am making a difference, solving issues, and working on what is most definitely the most complex project ever. It is AWESOME!!!

So I say to all of you OYASUMI NASAI

--JP OOOOOOOOOUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTT........ zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz